Hand injure... Been hospital for 3 days... But you didnt even come and visit me... How sad and hurt when i was alone and cold ward... Cry for 2 days, cry till sleep... Not because of hand pain, is my heart more pain than hand... Now at home rest, still keep thinking of you... Didnt go work, unable to see you... Is so miserable...

Have a boyfriend on 07/05/08... I know him due on work... He's a cook... He's a nice guys... The time i with him is happy and funny... 1st guy help me carry bag... 1st guy feed me eat... He is the 2nd guy i feel that with him, very happy, sweet... Why he 2nd? Cause the 1st guy gave me the feeling is Wee Liang... But we together for 2 weeks, he break with me... The reason he gave is because of family, financial and working problem... He damn stress... Cant forcus on me... When you say break, stress, family, financial issue, you holding my hand tie... I feel it so real that you not lying... When you say all this, you was sad also... You dont want also...

All is my own opinion... I know the reason he gave, you all sure think is bullshit... But i just dont want to face the fact... Cause i still love him... Peter ask me you put 100% heart in this relationship? I say no... Actually i lied to him... I have already put all my heart in it... And i thought it would lasting and he will be my last... But i wrong... I didnt expect thing would become like that... Cause he once say this "If you and i the feeling is there, sure can de dear... I love you worx" i believe and bet all my heart in it...

I'm sorry that you leave me, i havent told you "i love you" yet... Everything is too late... Forgive me dear... Will we still have chance...? You log inside my heart... Now nobody can come inside other than you... Will you allow me to wait...? Will you change heart...?

From my age 13 till 18... 5 years... I have 8 boyfriends... Boyfriends keep changing... None of the boyfriend more than half a moth and a years... Is they choose to leave me... Why they leave me...? The truth is some is my fault, due to my stubbon and wildfulness... But most of it is not my fault, not my wrong... I didnt do anything... Yet want to break with me... I think this is my curse... When will my curse will gone...? I have hurt alot of times... Heart break, fix, break, fix, break and fix plenty of times... I dont know now my heart left how many pieces...

Peter did ask me a question that i dont know what should answer... He asked "you no boyfriend will die?" The mind thinking is, no boyfriend is ok with me... But have boyfriend care, concern, love and pamper wasn't it better althought i scare hurt again... But i will bet with it... Doesn't all relationship need to bet... But i have bet for so many times... Unlucky...? I did go temple for pray... Making 3 wishes... Thought my love did come true, but in the end, nothing... Everything gone...

What i want to say is I MISS HIM... I LOVE HIM... His name and his cell phone number i will alway remember...

I will remember your smile, your laugh, your joke, the way you say me, the way you scold me... when i angry, you will hug me and apologise to me immediately...